When you go away, do you remember you’ve left somebody back home? I haven’t had a crush on anybody since you. I know now you’d wanna know about all those people who’ve been in and out of my life..! It’s kindda like I haven’t been hungry since today morning but I've had my lunch and dinner! And you know I push everyone away just to keep you near. No one thinks you’re good for me! They should know, it’s not good for them to tell me that. I can’t get my head around to forget you. My friends say I should play hard to get. Your friends say I should play hard to get. But I don’t wanna play no game. Kindda like I can’t play no game. Whenever I’m around you, I surrender and raise my white flags. I become a puppy. Something that I don’t become round anyone. But you’d never know. My knees go weak whenever I’m around you.!
Sometimes I wish we were shrimps with our hearts in our heads..! Wonder if we would have been any smarter when it comes to the matters of the heart? Or whether we would have been even more screwed up with our hearts controlling even the matters of our head..? Any which way, are we controlled by our hearts or our heads? Or is it a conscious decision we make to blame our hearts where our heads should be?
As the year came to an end I decided this is the year I stop loving you. My head said Bravo! But I couldn’t hear my heart. Now, I have always been a man of my heart, how could I not listen? This is a complex of my heart functioning with extra senses. Who wants a heart with better vision than one’s eyes? It’s like my heart notices your smile better than my eyes.
Some people think this is pain. But for me, this is pure pleasure. Loving you with no reasons, help or encouragement..! I like it, when you don’t have the power to make me stop loving you, no matter what you do…! It’s no use of you staying away or giving me space, I only fall deeper. Nothing helps me fall out. So give me a call, give me a smile and Make me smile while I’m at it. My head disagrees. But I don’t hear my heart, Again!
I’m a man of my heart. You’re more of your head. I wonder what is one to do when hearts and heads collide? I can’t stop wishing on a star and you won’t stop pulling me back to reality..! You think I’m crazy, I think you’re sweet..! you think I’m too nice, I think you’re amazing..! You think I fall in love easy, I think know it’s just you… And that’s just what you refuse can’t see.! These times feel like we have moved out of “Dawson’s Creek” and in to “Sex And The City” and I’m lost somewhere in between…! I wish there was a ladder leading up to your heart room..!
Here’s a thought, it doesn’t really matter if I’m controlled by my heart or my head…! You got it all. just be a little more careful..! “You may think I’m bullet proof but I’m not” nor is my head or my heart!
Decide
13 years ago
