Promise Of Forever; Josh & Leanne Cohn Edition!

Here Comes The Bride; Leanne Keil Edition!

So tomorrow is a big day. Big day for my sweet, weird and loving friend Leanne Keil. First of my friends to get married.

Im excited for her. I’m also scared. I wonder if it’s too soon. But how will you ever know right? She’s a smart girl, a straight A student who’s in love with one of the sweetest guys i have ever come to know. seriously, perfect he is. tolerant and never loses his cool. Just the kindda guy you'd like your friend to share her life with But there’s wrong time for the right things. as much as i am a die-for- love, live-for-love kindda guy, i’m in doubt, if it's too soon? Now, they have been in love forever, and i hope they will ever after too.

It’s a crazy ride. i’m excited to see her as a bride. I’m sure she’s gonna make one amazing one although it’s gonna be a casual, oh-so-too-much-fun beach wedding. Just like the time they randomly bumped into each other in hikka when her brother had taken off with her room keys and clothes! They met, they spoke, They smoked up, shared numbers and then lost it but then she remembered his birthday party invitation he lent that night and dropped by to quickly wish him, but he never let her go. Literally! It has all the right makings of a fairy tale and that’s just the way i want it to be for her!!! Here’s hoping and wishing all the love and luck and wealth and happiness and kids you need!!!

Love you both.
18.06.2010.

Only Thing That Matters When You Love Someone!

Life is all about choices. It’s funny how the choice you make when you’re 18 still can affect you when you’re 22. Whenever you fall in love, it feels like this is it. Whenever someone breaks your heart, it feels like the end of the world. And then comes along someone who makes you feel like all the pain is worth it, all over again. You bet your heart, you bet your soul, sometimes not knowing even little as if they like Taylor swift. Choices, sometimes so small just like those nuclear molecules that destroyed two whole cities. Just so you know, consequences are still felt to date! We have to decide what we want in life. Unless you want to go through your whole life looking life Beyonce in that Gaga video, seems to be having fun but uncomfortable and with an I-so-don’t- belong- here-face. It’s not always easy. Sometime we make mistakes. We all do. And we all might not be so lucky as Beyonce to be having a blast while we live through those moments.

Choices are funny. We know what’s unhealthy, we know what hurts, we know what’s not good but it’s not always easy walking away. If I could, I would walk away. I don’t even know what I’m here for. Maybe I just know how to love someone who’s not perfect perfectly. But the worst thing is knowing and making that mistake. Over and over again. Watching out for those emotional landmines just to step on them ntentionally. Just to blow your heart into million pieces to know you’re still alive. The realization thriugh pain that you’re still truly, madly and deeply in love with a loser who’s not so different to all the other losers. Like some kindda addiction but it’s not always about what’s right or wrong but who’s responsible for them. Sometimes we don’t dare take the safest road, sometimes we don’t think twice before jumping head first, its all about who’s waiting at the end of the tunnel. And where the fun in jumping if you don’t jump head first anyway? So what if we fall in love? What if we take a chance? What if it hurts?

In life we all get hurt; again it’s all a choice. People can hurt you only if you let them. But we let them anyway, with our hands down and call it love. We will get over them any moment we want to. We don’t choose who we fall in love with and we can’t certainly choose when to walk away. Maybe that’s a lie! Maybe we can choose but we don’t want the defeat. Maybe love is a trap. Ones who can believe are the lucky ones; Fools! It sucks. It hurts. But the heart wants what the heart wants, even if its heartache. Maybe somewhere something went wrong. Maybe the heart and head should switch places. Cos I rather lose my mind than being hurt! I don’t know what it even means, all I know is that heartbreak’s a bitch but yet I can’t look away when you smile. I may have the most brainless heart and the most conscious dick; maybe we could’ve been better off if I had it the other way.

But when you love some, only one thing matters, everything!!!

The difference between wishful thinking and denial is hope. You can keep hoping and wishing for your happy ever after until you lose even the will of “right now,” but the thing about fairytales is we all want our happy endings but too easily we forget that before they got there, there were poisonous portions, fire breathing dragons, vicious godmothers and all sorts of unfortunate tragedies. Only the faithful ones survived it. Nobody got their happy ending on a silver platter. Love is magical. One who can believe may be the lucky ones but what do u hold on to when your prince is on stray. Probably those pretty princesses didn’t know about STD’s and how to stalk on facebook.

That’s the thing, we hope against reality and love without limits but is it really love or are we just too afraid to end up in our castle alone? We take risks, we kiss another frog, everything is optional, and everything is a choice. Things so insignificant, have you ever wondered what life would’ve have been like if you didn’t sign up on facebook? What if you had never seen him smile? Wishful thinking or denial I don’t know but I just want us to go back to the way we were. Even if you only break, break, my break, break my heart!!!

But I’m an optimist. Love doesn’t have to hurt; at least it doesn’t have to hurt the whole freaking time. It’s a Beautiful mess, all the organized chaos we bring into our lives, Because when you love someone, only one thing matters, nothing!

I Will Walk Away Slowly!

I'm just gonna sit here,
A moment longer.
Why don’t you just jump up and down on my heart
A little bit longer.
I will pick up all the pieces
And walk away slowly...
Don’t worry,
I will never be fine.
It’s like you suck the life out of me.
Its like you suck the happiness out of me.
There was life before you,
None after you.
Any more innovative ways to break my heart baby?

Letters To Romeo; June

To Romeo,

it's the 30th Sunday. 1.32 am and i can't sleep!
somewhere you are crossing an ocean.
maybe u r already here.

i miss you.
and i've been missing you!

but i don't wanna text.
its like you are here and i wanna meet up.
i want to.
but cos u want to.
not because i miss you and u have to be nice.

and u r most likely to say,
"we must meet up"
then disappear
and send a text
"hey i'm back in London,
sorry i was really busy."

so i guess i have to wait til you go back to tell you.

i honestly wish there was a way i could make it all right.
i wish you liked me enough to over look that one mistake i made.
for all the mad ways i love you.
'cos im nowhere near a violent person.
it's been 5 years.
i guess you won't still ask me why
when i say i love you!

i'm sorry i'm making it weird.
it's not i want you to fall in love with me.
i just want you to know.
so when i finally move on, if i ever do
i will have the pleasure of knowing i didn't give up without a fight.

it's been 2 years since our best memories.
which by the way i still remember.
2 years is enough time to get over someone
who barely gave me anything.
but i think of you.
i still miss you.
i don't expect the same from you.
it's too much to ask from a man like you.

you have some amazing people around.
but if you ever need someone. i'm always here.
don't push me away.

i always have and i always will love you.
you will always have a special place in my heart!