Letters To Romeo; June

To Romeo,

it's the 30th Sunday. 1.32 am and i can't sleep!
somewhere you are crossing an ocean.
maybe u r already here.

i miss you.
and i've been missing you!

but i don't wanna text.
its like you are here and i wanna meet up.
i want to.
but cos u want to.
not because i miss you and u have to be nice.

and u r most likely to say,
"we must meet up"
then disappear
and send a text
"hey i'm back in London,
sorry i was really busy."

so i guess i have to wait til you go back to tell you.

i honestly wish there was a way i could make it all right.
i wish you liked me enough to over look that one mistake i made.
for all the mad ways i love you.
'cos im nowhere near a violent person.
it's been 5 years.
i guess you won't still ask me why
when i say i love you!

i'm sorry i'm making it weird.
it's not i want you to fall in love with me.
i just want you to know.
so when i finally move on, if i ever do
i will have the pleasure of knowing i didn't give up without a fight.

it's been 2 years since our best memories.
which by the way i still remember.
2 years is enough time to get over someone
who barely gave me anything.
but i think of you.
i still miss you.
i don't expect the same from you.
it's too much to ask from a man like you.

you have some amazing people around.
but if you ever need someone. i'm always here.
don't push me away.

i always have and i always will love you.
you will always have a special place in my heart!