Nineteen!

At 19
It’s hard for you compensate and understand
And rationalize the 23 year old me
To you
I’m just ignorant and blind
Someone who keeps breaking your heart

At 19
You can’t see what I see
That you don’t even know what you want
That you will change
And you might break my heart
At 19
You can’t see I’m afraid too

At 19
You don’t understand
That once I was 19
And I’ve lived through changes to see
What lies ahead of you
I know u think you got it all figured out
But you don’t have a clue

At 19
I’m nothing but an ass hole to you
I can’t wait for you to grow up
And realize that what I did was out of love
Hoping to save whatever we share, for years to come
At 19
Nothing of this matters to you
But at 23, years after 19
You look at life completely differently
And I can’t wait for you
To be 23 and see life that way

At 23
To know that I’m not an asshole
And I understand
At 19,
Everything is against you
But sometime you can’t see
How much I adore you.
Wait and see…